| DEAR LORA :) |
[Sep. 27th, 2006|02:52 pm] |
The only reason I asked you to remove your hand from mine is because I don't like being touched, let alone by someone who I don't get along with.
I tell that stuff to even my closest friends.
I know we don't like each other, but i am not going to bother you... Not going to physically beat you or anything but I don't want to be friends either and neither do you... SO lets just be "ok" take it or leave it.
Also your siblings bringing up my abuse is not cool, tease me because i'm a bitch and so forth but abuse is not a taunting issue like your eating disorders, I don't like you but even when people teased you about this I told them to tease you because of other reasons not because of problems that you cannot help IE: Bulimia.
alrighty then |
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[Jul. 31st, 2006|09:23 pm] |
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| | Sick and empty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nine inch nails- Great below | ] |
Oh God...
I have fucked my life up and I am so worried and scared I will not be able to fix it up now.
I really think I am too late.
I never learn from my mistakes, I am way too late!
Way late, I feel so lifeless inside and it's all my fault because I did it to myself!
I haven't eaten properly in 4 days... whatever i eat just comes back up and i don't know why!
I use to love food you couldnt get me to stop eating!
my hip...well hips i hurt the other side now (GOD IM STUPID!) and the lower half of my
spinal cordhurts and i don't know why!
I feel so old and sick, HUM-BUG! |
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[Jun. 28th, 2006|02:32 pm] |
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| | What's the point to life= EMO | ] |
Today something awful had happened... i won't get into it but i just didn't stand up for myself and i didn't beg.
I didn't struggle or say a word, i just stood there and took it all and didn't shed a tear afterwards... not even a whimper of a noise came out of me. In conclusion I am sad, alone and i've completely had it with my flesh and blood.
I will never be forgiven for what i have done and i will never forgiven for what has and today had been done to me.
But i love all my friends every single one of them and will adore them forever.
I love Tim, I love Adam, I love Micah, I love danielle, I love Matthew, I love Dan and Roxy I just love everyone of my friends.
Well... goodbye i have to go now.
Hopefully i will see you guys some day soon.
Don't you forget it! |
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[May. 16th, 2006|05:43 pm] |
Lora, the girl who has not got the guts to walk straight up to the person who she detests or has a problem with and tell them what she really thinks of them... on the other hand im the kind of person who does, the truthful kind.
Lora, the paranoid low-life scum of the earth who thinks everyone is out to get her or HER "Beloved" Micah.
When she doesn't realize that Micah is a human being, not a calculator or an item that can be owned.
That he will make friends on his own and she cannot FUCKING stop it from happening.
SHE left him, SHE must accept that he has people that actually care about him and will not use him like SHE has done to many people i know and will continue to do so!
Lora, the annoying scab on your knee that will heal one day if you could only stop picking at it!
The paper cut on the tip of your finger, add the lemon juice... that Lora too!
Lora, the competitive type that will try to kill you off, when she should know that there wasn't a competition in the beginning!
Lora, the girl or thing who thinks that i have a crush on Micah when she should know that i don't work the way she does, i don't manipulate... i just like being friends with people.
Lora, who was obviously confused with the fact that i was being chummy and affectionate with Micah.
Because she is an Ice maiden, the Queen of Dirt... she isn't familiar with words like truth, honesty, love (TRUE LOVE), caring, unselfishness, friends, kindness, beauty, freedom, friendship i think you get the point.
She represents all that is wrong and that makes me angry and sad, just think... people like this exist!
Lora, the girl who has just gone and done the biggest mistake in her life, because she has messed with me and a few of my GOOD, GREAT friends and if she continues to harass and still be an arrogant fuck then she's going pay big time.
My friends won't do anything to her because they feel like she is a big waste of time and getting angry or upset over her will make them more of low-life than she already is.
But i don't work that way, i will do something about this scab on my knee and the paper cut on my finger.
Conclusion: I can wait to see her at the next, I think she's going to be at the next Mandala project gig... AWESOME!
I hope she reads this little dedication article. |
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[Mar. 27th, 2006|03:35 am] |
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| | brain awake, body...exhausted! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | rain drops and floor boards creaking from upstairs | ] |
pfft, i am not satisfied at all. the crush wasn't that great. bummer.
hmm... i haven't written in a while i dont know what to write about really anymore.
kinda bummed out most of the time now, becoming a make- up artist, cutting my hair maybe today or tomorrow, getting my piercings back hopefully on saturday but i want to get them done on wednesday and i WANT MY BLUE HAIR BACK... but i know my hair would be falling out from all the chemical crap that i would have to use in order to get my blue hair... with the bleaching and the tinting and the washing out and doing it over and over againg and the yadda yadda yadda.
i dont think i like live journal anymore... i guess it was because it was more of a fad than a "hobbie" |
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| i have no friggin idea |
[Jun. 29th, 2005|02:07 pm] |
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| |  cold | ] |
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| | prodigy- breathe | ] |
shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit and of course...Fuck |
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[Jun. 22nd, 2005|09:42 am] |
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| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | smashing pumpkins- beautiful | ] |
When all is lost and times are at hand, think to those you love, have loved and will love. Be filled with the glow of those who love you. |
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| blahdy blah |
[Jun. 16th, 2005|01:51 pm] |
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hello, i think this will be my first live journal entry, um... yep. i dont really know what to do on here and stuff. but latetly thinks are going ok, a few speed bums but all and all not good and not bad just fine. im in school and its kinda crap, lots of bitches looking at me funny coz im wearing a pimp jacket. got nothin else to say so yeah seeya. - titi |
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[Jun. 10th, 2005|03:30 pm] |
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